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Monday, October 09, 2006 9:37 pm
What do you see when you look at me?
I went on hiatus for 3 days. Bored to death but I showed myself I can stick to what I planned. I wanted to cut my contacts with the outside world for three days, and I did. I'm so proud of myself. Which also goes to show that whatever I put my mind to, I can do it. And I will do it, no matter how much the temptation could get to me.
I watched Oprah. I learned that I shouldn't have a low self-esteem. It wouldn't get me anywhere. I shouldn't be so pathetic to get people's approval, trying to be what they like or want me to be. I should be myself. I shouldn't be embarrassed and think too much. I should just heck care what negative thoughts or words they have or say about me. But of course, whatever constructive comments they tell me, I would reflect on it and improve myself. I'm going to be the best of me from now on. In terms of personality (which I think I already have; I just have to get it out), in terms of relationships (family and friends; no boyfriends yet please, I'm not ready) and definitely in terms of studies and my participation in succeeding in school.
GO NADIAH!!
And when I'm in my middle age, say, 40-45, I'm going to write a letter to my younger self. What would I tell my younger self? I learned that in Oprah.
Right now, the only thing I'm looking forward to is hitting the books. I even thought of emailing my lecturers to give me something to do, a headstart before school reopens.
I'm also looking forward to the first day of Hari Raya. I can't wait to put on my pretty new gown. My mom said it's too much. Like I'm going to some important function or something. But whatever. I like to look pretty.
I'm also looking forward to the Asian Pacific Conference that's taking place in Singapore. I really hope I'd be selected.
I feel really positive at the moment. A total opposite from what I was a few days ago. It's good. GOOOOD!
And to those who gave me the hugs, THANK YOU! Who knows, you might be someone I'd do good deeds on.
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