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Monday, May 12, 2008 9:21 pm
Emotions.
One of my hamster died today. I got a text from my mom and my sister when I was at work. I cried, but controlled the tears from rolling out of my eyelids. I lost a baby. I think if I was the one who saw my darling hamster not moving, dead, I'd bawl in my bed for several minutes.
When I first got the news, I got sad. And then anger came over me. A few days ago, that hamster suffered a scratch from the inner corner or his eyes down to his nose. I just knew I had to bring him to a vet. I should have brought ALL of them to the vet to get them a check up, fix their teeth and cut their nails. But NOOOO, my mom said "There's no need, there's no need." GOD! I am so mad right now! I knew a vet was in place. And I STILL need a vet to see to my other two hamsters. ARGH! But thinking of how discouraging my mother is of seeing the vet makes me so angry that I can cry.
Anyway, Fiza, Nadhirah and I went out after work and caught a movie after having a bite at Burger King. We saw Harold & Kumar at The Cathay. Goodness gracious. It's a good thing I didn't catch that movie with a guy friend. I'd have died from embarrassment and shock. I'm never going to watch this kind of M18 movie again. Quoting from somewhere, "Must watch!"? AS IF. This is another movie I wouldn't have minded leaving half way and get another movie.
Although we went out today, to me it didn't feel like a real whole outing cuz Sheryn was unable to attend. Our initial plan was to have the 4 of us going out together. But twice something came up. So hopefully there'll be another day where all four of us are able to make it. We're also planning to take a long leave next year to tour some country in Europe or something together. But, yea, you know. It might not go the way we plan. I want to have hope in it but at the same time, I don't cuz I'm afraid of being disappointed.
I got my graduation robe yesterday night. I find it ugly. It's huge and has a thousand pleated folds in it. I just don't get why it has to have pleated folds. Can't wait to get the whole ceremony over and done with.
I have a crush on one of my driving instructors. Hong Fu is his name. Hahah. He's so friendly and likes to talk and comment on little things. Good and funny comments. He asks questions and seems interested, unlike some, asking for the sake of asking out of politeness. He's the kind I can imagine who'll talk about minor things while on the phone at night, lounging on the bed, making the girl on the other end giggle and have butterflies fluttering excitedly in the pit of her stomach. Haha. What's more, he thinks of his mama. So sweet. And he's exactly 20cm taller than me. Hahah. Stop your dreaming, Nad. But seriously, he is really, really funny. And God knows I like people who makes me laugh.

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